Feeling "Fat"

The feeling of feeling "fat" was the same when I was 230 pounds as when I am (now) 175 pounds. You can call it a self-image issue, but there is actually a FEELING, a bodily sensation, of feeling fat. I don't feel any less or more fat now than when I was 230 pounds, except that I was fatter, physically.

The problem with diets is that food tastes so good, is readily available, and is necessary for survival. So I can't avoid eating - and my problem always was portions, not what I eat. My problem is discipline. Self-control.

I can make the healthier choice of poultry or fish over red meat. I can choose fruits, nuts and veggies over junk food. I can choose the lower-calorie fast food choice, or not have fast food at all. No problem.

The problem lies in portioning.

So when I overeat, I feel fat. Literally. Pressure on my abs/tummy/lungs. I experience acid reflux, because I ate too much. My energy feels depleted. These are physical ways in which I feel fat.

The one thing I know for sure is, I cannot overcome an overeating problem through diet alone. I didn't lose weight by mere diet - it took exercise, and physical activity.

When I exercise, it is a natural appetite suppressant, and a natural energy booster. I feel better after a bike ride, or a workout. 

Not to mention, it helps my knee pain, a problem I've had all my life that only is better when I'm active (versus sedentary).
So today, weather allowing, I'm biking to work. Don't try to stop me.